To My Boyfriend Who Left Me

I thought I was enough.

I thought I will last.

I thought He is my last.

On October 22, you made a decision to leave me. 

I didn’t want to believe you at first, but your words crushed every bit of strength I had. You had to go back to her, you said. She would make you really happy, you added. I was deafened by your voice, which was music to my ears for a long, long time.

You told me it was my fault, but I couldn’t help . I wanted to ask you, "Why her? Why not me?" In a flashback, I remembered the first time we met, the first time you chat to me, the first time you touched my hand, and the first time we kissed. 

Two weeks ago, you were at your happiest with me, then all of a sudden, you wanted to let go, because you were unsure. You told me that you loved me, and you had some of the best moments of your life with me.

With you, I strived to be my best. I wanted to show you I was worth it. I wanted to show you that I could love you more than she did. During those six months we had, I saw your biggest smiles, heard your loudest laughs, and felt your warmest embraces. For once, I thought, I finally won your heart. I guess not.

Yes, you loved me, but it didn't matter. I lost. I thought I was better than her, and I was convinced that I was able to mend your broken heart. But I was just a rebound. You told me that you wanted to let go, because staying with me would hurt us more.  I think it swept away your feelings for me in an instant.

And I understand. I began to realize, I should swept also my feelings for you in an instant.

Thank you for setting us free. After all, you were right. Keeping a relationship out of consolation is pointless. You didn’t want me to think that you still loved me, when in truth, your heart was never mine to begin with.

You thought that by forcing yourself to fall in love with me, you’d finally forget about her, but you were wrong.

x

Thank you. Because of you, I learned how to love and give and forgive. I love you, and I’m letting you go. I know how hard it must have been to fight a feeling this intense. I know that I was more than just a past time to you, and I saw it in the way you looked at me. I know that you loved me, but the recurring thought of her constantly crept inside you, until you couldn't fight it any longer.

So go.

Find her. Tell her that you still love her, and never let her go again. Meeting someone like her is rare, so don't miss that chance.

                                           

 I know that someday, I’ll find myself whole again, and I’ll find someone who’ll love me with all his heart. 

x

Thank you for making me realize that what’s truly meant to be will always be. They say that when two people are meant for each other, no distance, no circumstance, and no one can keep them apart, and they’ll find themselves back to each other’s arms.

I am happy that you finally found the one who’s truly meant for you. As for me, you don’t have to worry, because I came to realize that sometimes, relationships reveal our purpose—and that I have found mine.

I hope I helped you find yourself, and I hope that you don’t forget that once upon a time, a girl loved you so true, that she let you go to give way for your one true happiness.

A photo grabbed and what a coincidence that the numbers and names printed on the tshirts are most likely its bout us...

 -Realization 101/ The DChumble Story- 12/31/2015 This was not posted since I have a busy days now.

xoxo

miss you myD!

To God be the Glory